Finding my place…
Here I was writing my FMF post on the prompt “place”. It was about my garden, and my life, and how I finally felt as if I was finding my place in the universe. It was about time I would have concluded, after all, I am 50 years old. It was a good post, and I might yet share it someday. But I’ll have to finish it first. Here I’m finding my place, speaking my peace after getting thrown for a loop.
38 seconds to go for writing time (and probably another 2 minutes to add pics etc. because I always cheat a little like that) I got a call. Luckily it was not an entire life-changing call, but it did knock me out of my place. My place in my post, my place in my day, my place in my confidence, my place in my peace.
I try to write early in the morning before the kids get up and before school starts. This morning was really no different. Except that it had been a while since I had felt I had something to say and the time to say it on my blog. FMF has been great for helping me focus even if it is in short 5-minute bursts. At least it keeps me thinking. Anyway, this morning I got a call from my hubby. As always he was looking after me. Obviously, something was up, but I didn’t know what. He just called and told me to get a shower, get ready to leave and then call him back.
Things go through your brain when something so out of the ordinary happens. Frankly, my brain went from “something is wrong” to “maybe he got off work for some reason and we are going to lunch.” The latter was most likely because I just wanted to find a positive reason he might be calling like this. It wasn’t positive. When I called him back he told me to meet him at the ER.
Long story short. He’d had a mild heart attack. We went to the ER, they tested and were about to send us home when they retested. After that, it’s a whirl wind of activity, waiting, more activity and more waiting. Yup, I was knocked out of my place in more than one way.
Speaking my peace…
I’ve learned, even before this, that if you focus on the good things you can get through about any situation. These are the things that brought me peace. I could see God’s hand in this from the beginning. From my perspective, this was WAY out of nowhere. I didn’t know that my husband had been feeling.
I could see God’s hand in this from the beginning. When I start to speak about where I see God’s hand I consider that “speaking my peace”. When we speak our peace I believe it helps others to look for God’s hand even when things are looking bleak or life is hard. Because when we see (and speak) of God’s work in our lives there is nothing we can’t get through.
From my perspective, this was WAY out of nowhere. I didn’t know that my husband had been feeling weak and just not right for the better part of a week. I didn’t realize that when he struggled to put up a new flag pole, he had struggled more than he had expected. Not that those signs would have pointed me in any one direction anyway, but once we got the test results that indicated he’d had a heart attack, those signs made more sense to him.
Also, given the fact that he had so much blockage of his heart, the mild heart attack that didn’t even damage his heart muscles was nothing short of a miracle. It was more like a thump upside his head to get him to go through the rest of the testing.
He had listened where I could see at other times he might have ignored the signs. He was able to drive himself to the hospital. He has done amazing as far as recovery, though we have a while to go, being able to come home just 4 days after a quadruple bypass seems amazing to me. Friends and family have helped us immensely. Yes, I see God’s hand in all of this.
As I walked out of his room one day when I was feeling especially tired, and worried, but still thankful I heard a prayer being said over the loud speaker. In the halls, of the hospital. Wow! Immediately, I felt comforted, energized, and at peace.
I see God’s hand in all of this. That is what has kept me in my place in the most important part of my life… my faith.
I would be very interested in seeing how you have seen God’s hand in your life. Use the comment box to speak your PEACE.