God refines me, and sometimes it hurts… a lot. Refine me Lord.

Refine me Lord.

It hardly ever fails really.
I have a flaw.
I work on the flaw.
I finally refine the flaw.
Life is good.
I get cocky.
Refine me Lord.
God refines me.
Sometimes, it hurts… a lot.

So I have this website, all about finding happy.
I’ve already established that I have a resting grumpy face.
But also, sometimes I let other people get in my head.
People who have no business being in my head to begin with.
They are not family.
They are not really friends.
They don’t bother to get to know me,
or my twisted sense of humor.
And then they blast me.
And I stew on it.
Then I get grumpy,
at my kids,
at my husband,
with myself.

That doesn’t really sound like I’m finding happy, does it?

Here’s a good reminder for everyone who goes through that mess
and feels like a failure.
Even for me.
Life is full of jerks.
We have feelings.
Sometimes we take things harder than we should.
We let people get in our head.

we catch it.
Like I just did.
And I pray that next time I catch it sooner.
Because being unhappy … sucks.


Refine; (v) 1. remove impurities or unwanted elements from (a substance),
typically as part of an industrial process.
2. improve or perfect by pruning or polishing.

Here is to a good attitude adjustment.
Here is to not letting others define you.
Here is to working on happy no matter where you are
on the “happy scale” or how many times you backslide.


About ~Me~ Hello, my name is Maxine. I am: Catholic and a stubborn child of God a wife (to my highschool sweetheart) a mom (to six wonderful kids that span 20 years in age) a daughter a sister a business owner an artist and a writer Like most women with a list like that, I'm also busy and sometimes overwhelmed. I'm on a journey to be happy despite the chaos, maybe even because of it.

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  1. “Here is to working on happy no matter where you are
    on the “happy scale” or how many times you backslide.”

    What a resoundingly strong statement. I find myself in a backslide wayyyyy toooo often and climb back up. What a beautiful post. Thanks! – Lori, visiting from FMF #62

    1. Thank you Lori. I get kinda tired of back sliding. LOL BUT I have noticed that I recognize it sooner, and it’s easier to adjust so all in all I really am a happier person than ever! 🙂 Thanks for stopping by.

  2. Okay…first I just have to say that your blog is extraordinary and beautiful! I had to get that out of the way.
    Second, I so totally get what you are saying or at the very least it resonates with me. It is kind of odd to me how the people who really are barely in my sphere can make me feel the most pressure. They don’t know me so why do I care? No clue, but I am so grateful for our amazing Father who keeps heaping His grace and love on us.
    This is my first time here. Glad I came by!
    Your FMF Neighbor. 🙂 God bless you! – Kelly

    1. Kelly, Thank you so much for your kind words. On of the things I have been stressing on is this blog. 🙂 Finally, I decided that others have a lot to teach me BUT I can learn the lessons AND still keep my quirky personality.
      Have a great weekend!

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